I’m reading The Alchemist right now, I understand the hype but I can also see why my friend labeled it as overrated before she handed it over. Anyway I’m enjoying it for what it is. There is this line early on that reads, “It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting…” I found it striking as it describes pretty accurately my present state. It is not only the dream being actualized but the steps you take to get there. When you realize that it could happen and suddenly everything is colored differently.
This all started I guess two years ago when I went to Strasbourg, France for a semester abroad which turned into a year abroad when I decided to go to Manchester, England for my second semester. I think that is when I really started seeing everything in my life differently, I realized how capable I was of actively searching for whatever I wanted rather than living in some prescribed role. There was no drastic moment, no light bulbs shattered. Honestly, it was slow and unnoticeable. You do change while you travel, but while you’re travelling you’re really just adapting. I just liked what I was adapting to. OK so somewhere along the way I also got really interested in sustainability. I’ve always loved the outdoors and hiking even though I’m from Brooklyn where the wild things are the rats on the subway. But still somehow my only camp experience was a three week camping trip through Canada when I was 13.
But I started thinking about nature and food production in a really serious way and I just love hearing and learning about it. So my last semester in school I did an independent study about Literature & Sustainability which really took on a life of its own and really became about how people derive pleasure and how our societal constructs have taken us away from many forms of pleasure… which is a whole other tangent.
Throughout the course my professor, who was fantastic, really guided me to consider going to grad school for this, science communication or whatever the title may be. I really wanted to go back to Europe and WWOOF and then also looking at grad schools seem to be the perfect pairing. I suppose it still is. But the more time passes it is becoming apparent that having the script in my head come to life is just a little more challenging than anticipated. But perhaps it is just allowing myself to take more time, it is mine after all.